I believe that nourishing my mind, body and soul with healthy eating, exercise and prayer will reverse MS. I believe that educating myself about MS and treatment options will reverse MS. I believe that being open to information and being open to miracles will reverse MS. I believe that God has great plans for me and will help me reverse MS.
If I believe all of these things, why am I preparing for my weekly injection today? Why am I hydrating and taking Aleve and getting ready to warm up my Avonex so that it is close enough to my body temperature not to sting on injection. Why am I practicing breathing exercises so when I wake up at midnight sweating and ready to throw up, I can get through it and hopefully fall back asleep. Why am I spending $300 per month on disease modification medication when I believe that I can heal myself?
Shooting $75 worth of drugs into my muscle once a week is my back up plan. I will do whatever it takes to be well and this may be one of those things. It is part of my plan until something better comes along. I do it because I understand that most people with MS get worse at some point. Natural history data suggest that of patients with Relapsing Remitting MS at onset, the disease will transform to progressive MS after 10 years in more than 50% and after 25 years in approximately 90%. It is likely that I have had MS for 10 years. I am not ready to be part of that 90% in 15 years.
In 15 years, I will be in my early 50’s. In 15 years, Bailey (amazing daughter) will be 26 living a great life on her own paying back loans for med school. In 15 years, Mark (amazing husband) and I will be celebrating our 17th wedding anniversary. I will do whatever it takes to be well. Now and then.
This story also reminds me of why I take Avonex: A man prays to God, “Dear God, please let me win the lottery”. He prays week after week and never wins. The man does not lose faith but continues to pray, “Dear God, please let me win the lottery” Finally God answers the man, “I want to help you, so please……buy a ticket”
Maybe Avonex is one of my lucky numbers.
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